You have to get up every morning with determination

the winter park high school guard has a whole new look..
NEW UNIFORMS BABYYYYYY!
uhyeahhhhhh<3

some people really have nasty mouths (language wise) and really, i never quite understood just how gross and completley unnatractive it is until now :[.

-Last Band Camp ever and so far I have no regrets to our show or work whatsoever.
-Guard is amaizng, love the girls :D.
-Jason comes home today and that makes me very happy :).
-Amazing times with amazing friends.
-Shopping.
-Family.
-Summertime.
-Yearbook.

my life...:D

As much as I complain about guard during the year when I go away to camp i love it. Music n Motion was this past weekend and it was prolly the most intense camp ive ever been to. I conquored my fear of turning under any toss and can now turn under anything as low as a double on any piece of equiptmen. I recieved a superior rating in elite flag and an excelent rating in both elite sabre and elite rifle. I think I did pretty good and i learned tons of new little tricks and such. I came close to being a finalist in drill down and in the pull-click exercise. This weekend is fahrenheit clinic number one and that should be exciting. I don't think many winter park people are going to go to this fahrenheit clinic but Erin and myself are going for sure. This years guard is going to be very good, I can feel it already, I'm excited. I still havent exactly recovered from Music n Motion but IDC i'm in guard mode and i love itt :]. YBK meeting today work tomorrow leadership on thursday work on friday camp on saturday, my life is one busy story.

I love you Jason Robert Gibson, always and forever baby boyy<3.

I absolutley 100% love him with all of my heart<3.
summer timeee :-D.
yeah.

I have to admit, i believe colonials prom was a lot better than winter parks. it was a lot more decorated and just fun all around. :]].

soo, major strssing right now with exams and such, but its almost over. the year flew by and its crazzzy. now its almost summer time with my baby boy<3.

graduations coming up and im gunna miss my marmar and lauren like crazzzzy. :[[.

im almost a senior!! woo!!!

almost 8 months with jas meaning my longest relationship :D.

only 7 more dayssssss!

jason robert gibson is the love of my life.
he ceases to amaze me.
i love you baby, always and forever<3.

so this weekend was pretty damn good.
friday - jasons game then icecream/his house
saturday - shopping with jason for marlea, perkins for guard breakfast, colonial hs for competition, marleas party, then pretty much an all nighter haha yess<3
sunday- day with the girls/sleep

marleas was very fun
and the after party was even better
i love marlea erin and lex with all my heart
like seriously
best friends a girl could ask for
and jason robert...
best boyfriend a girl could ask for :)
love you honey<3.

yeppp, pretty much, life is amazing right now :D. yeaaah

so its been pretty much forever so i guess id update.

competition @ freedom went good. supperiorsss! yay.

got my first A on a test in Hansens, that made me happy.

i've got a 91% in chem... also makes me happy.

alright so theres this boy, jason robert gibson, and seriously he has completley swept me off of my feet. every little thing that he does makes me crazy for him. hes so special and he has my heart, like...completley i love it :) lol. so for valentines day, he got this little idea of surprising me and texts me at 6:15am telling me to come outside, so i did. and there he was with a dozen white roses, stuffed animal, chocolates, card, toys, movie that he made me, and so much more. it was prolly the sweetest thing hes ever done for me.

so he did that but little did he know that i had been plannin on his surprise for the past 3 weeks. since we couldnt be together on valentines day because jason had a game out at lake brantley i decided to go and basically anialate his car. i mean window chalk all over, 29 ballons in the back, streamers with valentines hanging down from them in the back, streamers draped like curtains around his car, rose petals all over the front seat and dash board, note hangning from the rearview mirror, picture frames on the dash, chocolate on the dash, cut out hearts with sayings on them all taped around his car, heartshaped brownies with icing, and sooo much more. he got back to the school around 10:30 calls me and just says your ridiculous, i love you. yea, were pretty much in love<3.

last night was our 5 months. its gone by so fast. im completley in love with this boy. i mean, me and his mom call eachother and plan against him. its just an amazing point in time. please let it be like this forever :-D. k thanks<3.

so i thought i would dedicate this entry to my one true love, jason robert<3.

-you cease to amaze me every day
-even though i give you a hard time, you know its all in good play
-i love how you want to help people
-i love how you love to make everyone around you smile
-i love how close you are with your family
-i love how we can joke with eachother
-i love how we text eachother when we are sitting right next to eachother
-i love our sneaky little kisses
-i love how comfortable i fit into your arms
-i love how our hands look together
-i love how you always have the perfect things to say
-i love how you make jokes with me about the stupid drama at school
-i love how well-mannered you are
-i love how my parents adore you and vise versa
-i love how i can go out and spend the whole day with just me and your mom
-i love how you rag on your mom
-i love how cute you are
-i love your little imperfections
-i love how country you are
-i love how you think that YOU need ME
-i love our songs
-i love it when you sing to me
-i love how we started out best friends for 8 months
-i love how you have learned to open up to me
-i love our private language
-i love how just by looking at me you can tell how im feeling
-i love how you know theres something wrong even when i say nothins wrong
-i love how you say im yours forever, because i know its true
-i love how we have just as much fun with family as we do eachother
-i love how my best friends love you
-i love our little bets
-i love how you think you can kick my butt
-i love how my list of things i love about you goes on and on...
-i love how i never get sick of you
-i love how i cant go to sleep without bocephus :)
-i love how everything reminds me of you
-i love how i can try and teach you guard stuff
-i love how we can go play sports
-i love how we are so supportive of eachother
-i love how you know all about me
-i love how we can share a meal at a restaraunt cause you know i wont finish mine :)
-i love how i can take you underwear shopping
-i love how i can take you shopping period...
-i love your cute little romantic ideas you get :)
-i love how your family makes fun of me already
-i love how theres soo much more to love about you
-all in all, jason baby, i love you more than words can explain :).

alright so usually as a family tradition we only open up presents from my moms parents and her sister but this year my dad decided to change it up a little and surprise both me and my mom and needless to say, this is prolly the best christmas gift ive ever gotten and prolly ever will get.

my dad handed me a box. i unwrapped it thinking it was just my class ring (it sounded like jewlrey). i unwrap it, its not my ring. it was from zales. i open the box and immediatley start crying. my first piece of absolutley completley real diamonds and gemstones. its absolutley gorgeous. and that isnt the reason why i love it, well not completley the reason lol. after i opened it up my dad explained to me the reasoning behing the necklace. its an oval shape pendant with alternating real diamonds and blue (march) gemstones. both my parents birthdays are in march and thats why he chose that gemstone. he wanted both of them to always be a part of me and that is now what the necklace represents. now wherever i go, i will always have my parents with me. like seriously, i havent stopped crying since i opened the box. oh yea, and my mom got a circular pendant thats a bit bigger then mine completley en-circled with diamonds. absolutley gorgeous. i truley am a daddys girl<33.

this christmas has been the best ever so far. family friends jason, everything you all have made like unforgettable and i love you all for that. hope everyone has a merry christmas!!!!!!!!

soooooooo its been freaking forever cause of exams.
seriously, they were killing me.
people try to compare honors exams to harder classes
and i dont think that they realize, this is hard for me
but whatever (no that wasnt to you marmar) lol
70.0 in hansens left me with a 79.3 avergae for the semester
doesnt that suck? lol
butttt my pride and joy
was the 91% on campbells
omgggg i was like in shock when he told me :).
but yeah, thankfully those are over
now its just straight up relaxin till january
my unles in town from TN, cant say i dont love his visits
hes amazing lol
christmas time! im excited
and im excited thinking about next year
sure its a bummer that we dont get out till the 22nd/23rd
butttt the day we get out we're on our way to TN for the break :)
VERY exciting hahaha i love going to TN for xmas
its completley different then xmas here in FL
but yea lion king on brodway tonight
YAYYYYYY!
xoxo<3

all-star acoustic jam..
january 14th
i wanna go :)
whos down?

alright so thanksgiving was like uterly amazing.
the entired weekend was :).
xmas parades start this weekend.
plus xmas yearbook party on saturday.
plus nutcracker on saturday night.
favorite time of year EVERRR :).
i get to stay with my grandma this weekend
since my grandpa is in rhode island.
i love my grandma :) heheh.
guard is going very good.
school is actually going very good.
i could do with a little less work,
but whatever, its keeping me on track :).
and im actually doing it, amazing?
friends = amazinggg.
jason = more than amazing.
class rings tomarrow and friday.
excitement :).
k think thats it :).
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE<3.

So tonight i went with my mom to see the cine dance production of A.D.D. and let me tell you, it was amazing.
i remember when i first walked into that jazz class and the first time that i danced with them, they took my breath away then.
watching them on stage tonight and all the personal relations that each makes with the dance as well as just all of the emotion that they put forth into their dancing just amazes me.
im just in awe.
that is a VERY talented group of six dancers and i dont think that i will ever forget that
its amazing how free dance can make you feel
if anyone has a chance, 2pm tomarrow afternoon at harwood-watson dance studios go see this show
seriously, its TRULEY FREAKING AMAZING.
i wouldnt lie to you.
dance=passion<3. rawr.

emit won dancing with the stars :).
my night is COMPLETE, for sureee<3.
he completley deserved it.
dancing with the stars season finale...done
laguna beach season finale....36 mins
girls next door season finale...sunday.
what am i going to do
i have no more shows to watch :(
2months with jason tomarrow
yayyyyy! :).

tonight was amazinggg.
this kid has really got me heels over head for him
and i mean REALLY.
ily babyyy<3.

soooooooo.
:-).
winterguard should be really fun this year.
its a show song we can actaully perform to
and feel comfortable so im excited :).
also if the uniforms get approved
im looking very forward to those as well :).
8 new girls. we now have a junior clas of 12 in guard.
that is freaking CRAZY if you ask me.
lol but hey, we're up to 22 now, im not complaining :).

so latley ive come to notice just how much a few certain people mean to me in my life.
for example jason. i mean, it feels like ive been dating him forever
when in reality its only been 2 months.
we were best friends for soooo long and "dated" for a while as well
hes one of the very few guys that ive ever trusted before
besides my daddy :)
hes an amazing guy and yea i really think ive fallen this time
COMPETLEY heels over head :)
yes heels over head, not head over heels
it makes more sense :)

another person; my daddy
going to the movies saturday night with jason
and seeing flicka (ya i almost cried)
the scenes with her and her father
made me realize how close and personal my relationship with my dad is
dont get me wrong i love my mom just as much as my dad
but i can DEF say
im a true daddy's girl :)

andrea<3marlea
when you brought out your senior ad at lunch the other day
i about cried
YOUR LEAVING me
and its finally hitting lol
but dont worry, we have that strong friendship
where absolutley nooone and nothing can come between us
so what is a few hours between us?
it wont hurt nothing :).
haha i love you honey, more then words can describe.

erin<3higgins
little sister. so mikalas kinda got the name now...
but you will always be my number one lil sis :)
i mean we got the necklaces to prove it
friday night you were there for me
all the way
even when i was hysterically bawling my eyes out
the comfort of your hand on my shoulder
was enough to calm me down and be thankful for what i have now
and to be thankful for the times and memories i still have of her
i love you to the mooon and back ++ more :) hah<3

lauren<3owston
i miss you like crazzzy.
serious you and me time very soon comprende?
bueno. hahaha
i love youuuuu<3 bffffl<3

jessica<3wunderlin
enough said. i love you :).
hangout soon kk?

and ya theres more but whateverrr.
i love these people more then they understand.

to kill a mockingbird on friday.
whos down?

so competition was amazing.
1st place in class for guard, i can handle that.

missing a week of school due to strep throat = major stressor.

things with jason = amazing.
i care about that kid so muchhhh!
hahahah.

friends, perfect.
i love marlea lauren erin alexa chelsea and jessica more then they will ever knowwww.
BEST FRIEDNS FOR LIFE.

tired of trashtalking.
its getting old, and immature.
time to be the better person.

found that some guys are complete assholes
and will do anything to ruin a relationship between two people

dance = amazing.
seirsouyl i feel like 100 times better
and unstressed
and un-everything
whenever i get out ther and spill my heart out

homecomming is in 11 days.
talk about major excitement.
h2 hummer limo + 20 beautiful girls and handsome guys
i bet theres MANY people out there
who are majorly jelous of how we do things<3
yea thats right
its gunna be freaking amazing.

fairs are fun.
makeup work for school is not.

done:)<3.

so basically my birthday was amazing.
i love all my friends to death.
they made it truley and completley just perfect.

monday - acutal bday. i open my locker and find out my two best friends lied to me friday after school adn compleatley owned my locker with pictures food and quarters. lol i loved it :) that night jason and matt took me and lauren out to dinner and it was absolutley amazing. i love that kid to death. serisouyl, hes like everything i wanted in a boy and more. ilu jason babyyy<3.

there was some downfall to my birthday though, something that really hurt me and hit me hard. my brother didnt even call to wish me happy birthday. didnt send me a card or anything. i guess that really shows that he doesnt care about the family. i was the one person he said he would never forget or be mad at or aynthing. then why the hell cant he just pick up the phone even just to call me and say happy birthday adn hang up. to tell you the truth, that was the number one thing that i wanted and wished for for this birthday. but i didnt get it. i guess things really dont always go your way, even for something as important as this, family. i guess im nothing to him now. kinda upsetting huh?

wednesday, spent my afternoon with jason erin and steve. very fun :). like i said, i love everything about jason. hes an amazing guy, too bad it took me this long to realize it :).

game tomarrow @ citrus bowl then competition saturday -> overnight -> bush gardens on sunday! i dont think ive ever been to bush gardens before, well theres a first time for everything!

spirit boxes saturdayyyy!
k, im done.